#OffBeat: I Just love love !

Well, this track describes me as much as possible !

Hol Bass El Maneyik B Hottouwa

I've wanted to write this "incident" for the last week, but life these days suck ! not much time to do anything.

#OffBeat : Hot boys 102

Everyone needs someone to droooool on.

#OffBeat : Hot boys 101

A New series of posts showcasing picture of type of men i like....

Can you get any lower ????

Dear @MTVLebanon, can you get any LOWER ???

Dear Joe Maalouf : I LOVE YOU

I kept my silence in the last week, and only retweeted or shared what i thought is right to share, but now i'm speaking.

1.5 years

1.5 years ago, you double hurt me,
1.5 years ago, you knew what that day meant for me, and you chose it to hurt me more,
1.5 years ago you left me for no apparent reason,
1.5 years ago, 2 days later, you had a new boyfriend

1.5 years ago, you knew how to hurt me,
1.5 years ago you succeeded in throwing a knife deep in my heart

1.5 years later, i still love you, and maybe that's why i haven't dated anyone else till now.
1.5 years later, i'm still stupid enough to think about you, but SCREW you.

Coming out to my first straight friend

It all started back in 2005, the first year of university.
The first year students were divided to 2 groups and she wasn't in mine.

Her smile and craziness caught my attention.
Whenever she hears a beat.. You will see her SHAKING IT. She is 2+ years older than me.
In the second semester, we had common courses, and one day she asked me if i could drop her some place to be able to take a taxi home (since our uni was kinda excluded). And that's when it all started.....
For the next 4 years... We went together every morning to university

I would pick her ( although i would have to do Beirut tour ) but i got addicted to her craziness.

We would spend more than 5h/day together
University stuff, chatting about everything : her dates, her stupid Ex, family, friends, etc

We would talk about how she likes sexy asses on cute boys, she joked about sleeping with girls...
That gave me the clue that she may accept having her best friend GAY.

Almost 3 months after our graduation she met someone and i was the first friend to be introduced : " look babe, DDD KHAT AHMAR , it's either u accept me being super close friend with him or Shuf shu baddak ta3ml "
When i heard that, i said WOW

6 months later they got engaged and later married.

I loved every minute of those times and i wish nothing but the best for her and her husband ! I love the guy and she couldn't find anyone better :-)

Anyway, on March 2011, they moved to Africa. And i was devastated. I was just getting out of a relationship when she left....and that led me to a depression. I just wanted someone to talk to....to let it out.

One day, i was talking to my best friend ( yes he is gay and how i met him is another story you will read later ), and i told him that i was thinking of coming out to her, his answer was : if you think she could accept it, why not..

So, one day, i was really depressed, and i texted her to go online.

I started by trying to figuring out how to break the news, so we chatted random stuff

And at some point i started directing the conversation towards my new friend (the gay guy although she didn't know).

She started remembering how her and me met and how much she was crazy and like boys butts and.....

I stayed silent for a minute or 2 and then i started explaining how much am down and depressed

How much i really needs a friend right now to hear me and accept me

How much i wished i could tell her everything ....

She kept asking what was the problem and why i couldn't tell HER everything.

Till i said : "i want to tell you something serious and I want you to hear me till the.end and then you can either block me or we can continue our chat. I am gay. And have been forever. All the love life details u know about are true. I only changed 1 detail : the GF is in fact  a BF."

Guess what her answer was ????????

"Are you gay or bi ?"

I replied that i was gay, and that was the turning point of our relationship and the start of an even closer relationship !

She accepted me the way i am.
She listens to me when i need someone to talk to.
She always asks me about my dates.
She even told me some things even her husband doesn't know about .

And she started remembering some situations where she used to think about why she didn't understand my reaction back then and how NOW she understands what i did back than.

Why i wrote this post right now ?

Because in less than 1 month she is  coming in vacation to Beirut and I can't wait to HUG her and thank her for being a true friend and not like many of my other so called friends.

I love you girl and thank you for being part of my life.

My First #IDAHO

Well, the title explains it perfectly. Today, May 17th 2012, is officially my first IDAHO.

MTV Lebanon Again and Again

They don't seem to understand, they don't seem to care.

It's been a while

Well it's been more than 1 month for my last post, and more than 3 for my last "Story related post". i can't fully blame it on being busy, but there is something else.

Inspired by Glee

Today, a friend sent me a youtube link, and i was surprised to find out it was a performance from the latest episode of GLEE.

My Experience with Gay Nightlife in Lebanon

For those of you who don't know, until 2012, I've never been into any kind of place that has a reputation even close to being "Gay Friendly".

My EX is dating my first sex

Well, most of you probably read my post FIRST TIME. If not, be sure to check it before reading this.

First ?

After my first time, it's time to talk about my first fake email, facebook account, manjam account, chat, till the first meeting.

Well............ this is a surprise

i was shy, i followed him from my real account on twitter. He was an openly gay man, living in a peaceful Damascus. We tweeted and replied for almost 2 months, then he told me he was coming to Beirut. i don't know why, but i really wanted to see him.

Will 2012 be any different ?

2012 = 2011 +1 ... so why would it be any different ?