Untitled, because i lack of everything.
I've been laying low for the last 6 months approximatively because i lack of everything:
- I lack of motivation to write.
- I lack of motivation to tweet.
- I lack of motivation to party.
- I lack of motivation to work.
- I lack of motivation to do anything.
In those 6 months:
- I've been into a 5 months old "It's complicated". ( Will be details in another post )
- I've been exclusive to 1 guy ( although i didn't choose to be so, but just happened ) - Check first point.
- And although it super, extremely complicated, and already knew it will go nowhere, i fall to it ( That will be another post ).
In those 6 months, i watched and observed:
- The liars and backstabbers are the only ones enjoying life.
- Gay people ( at least in Beirut ) are 99.5% schizophrenic.
- You wake up, Go to school/Uni/Work, Catch up with friends/ Go To Gym, go home, sleep, and do it again in the next day. Conclusion: I hate routine.
My conclusion for those 6 months:
- I NEED A CHANGE, a change in one of the following : Work, Family, Relationship statuko.
- You may have 54000 acquaintances , but only a handful of friends, some of them you won't be expecting that they care about you.
- You may feel like you rule the world, or like shit, but your true friends will be there for you whether you're a super human, or hating the world.
For that i need to thank ( Putting initials here to respect privacy ): D, J, G, H and B.
I guess i am back ( Since i have to write the post about Mr "It's complicated" ), but honeslty i don't know how much i can continue like this if that CHANGE didn't happen soon.
Thank you @BeirutBoy , @ThatGlassesBoy , @BattleBornBoy and @BLebnani for checking on my when i disappeared :)
I totally relate to what you mean.
ReplyDeleteEveryday it's Groundhog Day for me too. Work gym. Work gym. Dating sucks. Not enough time for something meaningful. It's all part of growing up. But the good thing is we have close friends to help us through it. We're all going through the same thing.
Well I have some points that would love to discuss them, first i don't agree that 99.5 % of the gay guys are schizo there are a lot who are well educated open minded and so nice to hang out with them, maybe you are searching in the wrong spot and concerning the routine we're all stuck in this routine, my only advice try to diversify your activities and your plans, that will be a way to relieve the stress created by the dam routine
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